Sunday, October 17, 2010

10 Months!

Well...over 2 weeks ago she was 10 months!
Better late than never right!
Tessa is so much fun! She is so interactive and always wants to be involved with everything! She is nosy like her mom :-) She is a crawling maniac...and she is FAST! I honestly can't turn my head for a second and she is down the hall and in her bedroom. She has 5 teeth and barely any hair! She babbles a lot saying dadada and nanana all the time, still no mama :-( ...she also says huh? huh? all the time in the CUTEST little high pitched voice! Whenever she gets mad she starts bringing out the gagaga noices...Casey and I are pretty sure those are her swear words! :-) She gets sooo angry and just starts saying Ga GGGGGAAA! I can't help but laugh. We always we are in big trouble when she brings out the Ga's!
She loves chicken, peas, potatoes, and cheerios. She loves cheese and graham crackers too! She only gets baby food from a jar if we are eating something not baby appropriate. She usually just has what we are having for dinner. She also LOVES feeding herself. We are struggling with her hitting the spoon away when we are trying to feed her. Its super frustrating!
She is still a power sleeper! She is down usually between 7:00 and 7:30 and wakes up usually around 6:00ish. She tends to sleep until 7am on the weekends when she doesn't hear me up and moving around already.
We are working really hard with sippy cups and she is finally starting to get it! We are also phasing her away from her pacifier...harding on me than her I think. She rarely gets it now. That is until the other morning when Casey went to get her out of bed and she had a paci in her mouth and one in each hand...I am pretty sure she had them tucked behind her bumber in her crib saving them for a rainy day! :-)

It has also gotten VERY hard to get pictures of her all smiling and looking at the camera...she has turned into her father who HATES his picture taken! Too bad Tessa just has to deal with it! Here are some pictures I have taken over the past couple of weeks!

 she lovs these rings!
 here mom! lets play!
 big smiles! her poor boo-boo on her head :-( She still has a faint scar from it!
 she does this daily! she throws all these books on the floor. but then she opens them and looks at them so its okay :-)
 headed out shopping!
 wants to play with kitty but casper lays just far enough away that she can't reach him!
happy baby at bed time! 
 throwing out my dish towels on the floor! she does this all the time too :-)
 she was crawling around in her room so i plopped her in her bumbo and she still fit!
 she thought it was hysterical!
 her future potty chair!
 crawling towards me! always has her bottom lip tucked in!
 funny faces she makes!
 loves her cherrios!
 she is obsessed with the dishwasher. if it is open she has to be right next to it or she throws a fit!!!!!!!!!
 ready for dinner!
stop taking picture and feed me!!!!!

Soon Tessa will be 11 months old and then she will be a YEAR! I can't believe she is almost 1 year old! Craziness!!!!! Hopefully I will some how find the time to update the blog more often! This little girl just exhausts me! :-)

Hope you are all having a wonderful fall!
Until next time...Peace, Love, and TESSA!

Halloween Fun!


 Sporting the onesie with the tutu :-)
 There's a smile!
 Such a little drama queen!
 She was crawling and growling at me in this pic!
 Pretty sure she is sick of the camera at this point!

 Not a happy baby...pretty sure she is thinking about some not very nice words right now...
 Can't beat a $1 Target shirt!

 so wish this picture wasn't blurry!!!! She was just a laughing in this picture!

 Oops! Pictures are out of order...oh well! I don't know how to fix them :-) Does it really matter what order they are in?! Either way she is too stinkin' adorable!

 I absolutely ADORE this picture! One of my all time Fav Tessa pictures!

I love having Tessa to celebrate all the different Holidays with! She is soooo much fun!

Pumpkin Patch!

Today we went to the Pumpkin Patch! It was so much fun! Tessa kept pointing at everything! She was so busy looking around that she would NOT smile and rarely look at the camera! Little stinker... We did get some cute pictures though! We are planning on going to a different pumpkin patch next weekend! Maybe she will decide to smile then :-)

Here are the pics!

She looks sooooo bored in most of these pictures!
I swear she was having a great time!

Friday, October 15, 2010

October 15th

2 years ago October 15th basically had no meaning to me...just another day on the calendar. Now October 15th has an entire new meaning. October 15th is the National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Everyone was invited to light a candle at 7pm in all time zones, all over the world, in memory of all the babies gone to soon.

Alyssa's Candle

Although Tessa makes the days easier, there is still not a day that goes by that Alyssa is not on my mind. She is on my mind some days more than others, but she is always there. Many people told me that it would get easier as time passes...not true. If anything its getting harder. There is so much I missed out on with Alyssa...I still think about all the "What If's" 

Danny Gokey has a new song out that I just love called "I Will Not Say Goodbye". Here are the lyrics. I think this song is great for anyone that has experienced a loss dear to their heart.

Sometimes the road just ends
It changes everything you've been
And all that's left to be
Is empty, broken, lonely, hopin'
I'm supposed to be strong
I'm supposed to find a way to carry on
I don't wanna feel better
I don't wanna not remember
I will always see your face
In the shadows of this haunted place
I will laugh
I will cry
Shake my fist at the sky
But I will not say goodbye

They keep saying time will heal
But the pain just gets more real
The sun comes up each day
Finds me waiting, fading, hating, praying
If I can keep on holding on
Maybe I can keep my heart from knowing that you're gone

I don't wanna feel better
I don't wanna not remember
I will always see your face
In the shadows of this haunted place
I will laugh
I will cry
Shake my fist at the sky
But I will not say goodbye

I will curse
I will pray
I'll relive everyday
I will shoulder the blame
I'll shout out your name

I will laugh
I will cry
Shake my fist at the sky
But I will not say
Will not say goodbye
Will not say goodbye
Will not say goodbye

Always missing, never forgetting, my sweet Alyssa

Has it really been almost 2 years?
Seems just like yesterday....

Monday, October 11, 2010

Happy Baby!


I haven't updated in a LONG time...I will update soon!
In the mean time watch this video! I promise you it will make you smile :-)